Yet I have to say, life wasn't lived to the fullest, and I'm not going to do the juvenile whining and putting blame on others. I only have myself to blame. For it is my own life, with decisions that are made by only me, myself and I.
Now that I have made an irreversible decision to attain something permanent and un-doable, I have no regrets. I feel that I am finally taking control of my life and living it the way I want it to be. No more conforming to what society imposes on us. No more sweety pie, I'm-such-a-good-girl image.
It's my life. Whether you love it or hate it, I don't give a fuck.